R.A.W

MAN I CANT EVEN TELL YOU WHERE IT BEGIN. IT SATRED WHEN SHE WAS IN THE FIELD ON THE PHONE AND I INVITED HER TO A PROBATE. AFTER THAT DAY I ALWAYS SAW HER WALKING AROUND...... I TOLD ALL MY BROS I WAS GOING TO PERSUE HER AND I DID. WE STARTED OFF CLICKING GOOD BUT NOW IT SEEMS LIKE WE GETTING READY FOR A ROLLERCOATSER RIDE. ONLY THING IS I DONT LIKE THIS THEME PARK. I BEEN IN THIS PARK TOO MANY TIMES...

BROWN EYES WITH NO FAVORITE COLOR BUT A PREFERENCE OF PURPLE..

a minute

its been a minute since i was on here......alot to catch up on
lets start with the ending of summer. school started again so you know what that means......BULLSHIT TO THE EXTREME.....my brothers started out good but seems like we are all starting to seperate. i told myself thst i wouldnt let that spit happen this semester but i guess it was out of my hands.....

i feel as if thats alot of bullshit...why???? because we been through hell high waters and smelly hoes together but we splitting over petty and bitchassness. i just hope at the end othe day we still the same fam we started out as..... 

becoming your own

go through life is one thing but becoming your own person is a journey of its own. when you go through life you go through birth school and the "real world". you deal with little kids teasing you for being different. then move on  to trying to find a crowd to fit in with. you find your crush and sometimes you end up with your crush.but you know you still in your "shy" phase. see high school you meet up hopefully with the same crowd to make it through the 4years of hell with. some people meet others that act better than the originals.

once high school is over, some of the friendships you had will be over and thats when the eye openers begin. college is like the wild jungle. you get mixed up in different organizations and start hanging with people that are TOO much like you. but as you continue on your journey you quickly see that the ones who smile are the ones who really plot. fact of the matter is as you grow you will eventually be on your own. but those who call themselves your family will never leave you. you might be in one place and their in another but if its true yall will link back up some how.

p.s your family will always have your back but your "friends" always come with a limit

games

when i was 5 years old, my mom being a single mother. taught me how to play numbers. i was bucked up i knew how to play so i started challenging every chick i seen. so one day my big cousin Mallery set me down and taught  me 6 more. so i started playing those games with all the females on the block and at school. the dudes wouldnt play thinking its gay not knowing all the females was diggin it. so i continued to play and some girls were jealous that i was playing with others cause they thought they were my only friend.

well when i got older the games got all little different. it turned from just playing with hands to playing with mouths. but the crazy part is the reaction to different friends got a little bigger. so i thought about it and came up with a strange solution.

see as children we learn games as a way to commute or socialize with others or the opposite sex. but as we get older we see that those games come with a much bigger consequence. like you can really get killed behind games especially with the opposite sex. see some of us as a child played those games and never left them in the past. the only thing is they have learned to twist it up in their own way. so once the games get bigger emotions seem to get involved.

p.s dont  alter people feelins if you dont want yours messed with

faith

Faith is the substance of things hoped for evidence of things not seen. so how far does faith take you. well it depends on how strong your faith is and what/who is your faith in. as we live and realize that everything we do God is in it. whether its bad good nasty or clean. the thing i learned today is that with even the smallest amount of faith...you can go very far. faith is not just believing its doing.

in order to build an empire you have to have faith that the materials you have is strong enough to withstand any obstacle. the trick is...you need to show the effort in order to reap the rewards. i know i may sound corny but the day you drop your faith is the day you will realize that fighting alone will get you no where. if you dont have any one on your side you need God on your side.

p.s- prayer without work is nothing

perseverance and image

so i was watching this episode of House, which is a show about doctors. one in particular named House, who was the boss of most of the staff. well he has a way to get his point across whether its being arrogant, jerkish, assholish or whatever. so on the episode he was trying to find out how this CIA patient became ill. now perseverance plays a part simple because, he was wrong 5times but never gave up. although he didnt show he was trying he demanded many types of treatment until the man finally showed some improvement. now i know that can only happen in a show, but that shouldnt deprive you from persevering in real life.

so i sit back and watch how some people are soo worried about how they look to others. why???? its funny because you go out and spend all this money to try and impress others and then find out their not worried about you. i wish people would stop worrying about their physical image and focus on the mental and characteristic image. in todays world you can be dressed horribly but be more paid than anyone walking around you. you can look like you woke up and just walked out the house but be smarter than anyone that challenges you. no matter what they say mental will always over power physical.

p.s if you feel its right then dont give up, with faith and work in the end you will come out on top

purpose

two people who enjoys each other company is always labled as 3 things. friends, lovers, fuck buddies. but why? is it possible that two people can just like to be around each other without having any type of title to them. the thing is, everyone looking in sees two people that seems to be attracted to each other so their obviously having sex. the fuuny thing is, for the people actually in the situation, sees someone that has purpose to them. that person could make them smile in the worst of times, they could comfort them like no other can, they could know that person inside and out, but what constitutes that their in a relationship or even like each other.

remember when i spoke on envy, well its showing up again. i am envying one of my friends because of their study habbits. usually they are up singing, smokig talking about females. but now they are trying so hard to keep their eyes open, simply because they want to better themselves educationally. now i believe this is the good type of envy, but is there really good and bad envy. tnats another subject for another day. but for the most i will say that tonight, i will try to be like that. its time to crack down and sense todays world is known for following the crowd. i will follow and see what happens.

p.s.everything that happens has a purpose......WHATS YOURS????